new brca group...

...for those of you who follow my blog because you are carriers yourselves, there's a new brca support site you might want to check out... http://brcaumbrella.ning.com

...it's new and growing...check it out :)

...as for me...the ass is growing as opposed to shrinking...but i'm going to keep trying :) the week at work knocked me out...but i'm bouncing back...first weekend in forever that i haven't had out of town guests...just going to relax and store up sleep (though much to my dismay, you can neither "store up" or "get back" sleep, but i am going to fight the scientific powers that be and try anyway!!!)

it's getting easier...

...to stay awake for an entire day...now i find myself facing issues like...ok, no belly anymore, holy shit, i have a giant ass!!!

...i never really realized the size of my ass before, but now with nothing to balance it out...can you say GA'DUNK'A'DUNK?!?!? my pants don't fit...smaller ones are too tight in the thighs and butt, but bigger ones don't fit my waist...

...but then i think, i'm healthy...why does it matter how my pants fit? but then back to the harsh reality of life...my pants should fit well...so putting myself on a diet...we'll see how that goes...i'll keep you posted :) will me the power to lose weight in my thighs and butt only :)

back to work...

...i'm back to work as of two days ago...and boy am i beat! i can't believe how much i lack in stamina...i can do about four hours maybe five and i'm spent!!! it's an adjustment, i'll tell you that much...

...i thought i would miss work...but i didn't...i loved being home, it was great...especially after the drains came out and i was pretty much back to myself...jay told cara that i sound back to my old self again...i was really happy to hear it, if only through the grapevine! i do feel back to my old self...pretty much, getting acclimated to this new body, trying to look, but still not able to stare...

...i had to go bra shopping before i went back...boy was that a challenge...my mom and i must have gone to a zillion stores...it was terrible...mostly because you can see the round scars on my breasts through most bras...but we found this great one that has built in petals to cover up normal lady's nipples...and they are apparently perfect for my scarring issues...so i was pretty happy about that...

...it's a little weird to be back though...no one seems to know how to look at me, where to look, what to say...i found that at my nephew's birthday party also...just a little awkward on the social interaction front...

...anyway, i'm off to nap...ugh...but gotta do it!!!

...ps...i get nipples april 1!!!! yippee :)